uleg.thefarthestshore-第40章
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f death； not burnt by the dragon's fire； not maimed； but not whole。 The sockets of his eyes were empty。
〃I have no fear；〃 he said。 〃What should a dead man fear？〃 He laughed。 The sound of laughter rang so false and uncanny； there in that narrow； stony valley under the mountains； that Arren's breath failed him for a moment。 But he gripped his sword and listened。
〃I do not know what a dead man should fear；〃 Ged answered。 〃Surely not death？ Yet it seems you fear it。 Even though you have found a way to escape from it。〃
〃I have。 I live： my body lives。〃
〃Not well；〃 the mage said dryly。 〃Illusion might hide age； but Orm Embar was not gentle with that body。〃
〃I can mend it。 I know secrets of healing and of youth； no mere illusions。 What do you take me for？ Because you are called Archmage； do you take me for a village sorcerer？ I who alone among all mages found the Way of Immortality； which no other ever found！〃
〃Maybe we did not seek it；〃 said Ged。
〃You sought it。 All of you。 You sought it and could not find it； and so made wise words about acceptance and balance and the equilibrium of life and death。 But they were words …lies to cover your failure… to cover your fear of death！ What man would not live forever； if he could？ And I can。 I am immortal。 I did what you could not do and therefore I am your master； and you know it。 Would you know how I did it； Archmage？〃
〃I would。〃
Cob came a step closer。 Arren noticed that； though the man had no eyes； his manner was not quite that of the stoneblind； he seemed to know exactly where Ged and Arren stood and to be aware of both of them； though he never turned his head to Arren。 Some wizardly second…sight he might have； such as that hearing and seeing that sendings and presentments had： something that gave him an awareness； though it might not be true sight。
〃I was in Paln；〃 he said to Ged； 〃after you； in your pride； thought you had humbled me and taught me a lesson。 Oh； a lesson you taught me； indeed； but not the one you meant to teach！ There I said to myself： I have seen death now； and I will not accept it。 Let all stupid nature go its stupid course； but I am a man； better than nature； above nature。 I will not go that way； I will not cease to be myself！ And so determined； I took the Pelnish Lore again； but found only hints and smatterings of what I needed。 So I rewove it and remade it； and made a spell… the greatest spell that has ever been made。 The greatest and the last！〃
〃In working that spell； you died。〃
〃Yes！ I died。 I had the courage to die； to find what you cowards could never find … the way back from death。 I opened the door that had been shut since the beginning of time。 And now I e freely to this place and freely return to the world of the living。 Alone of all men in all time I am Lord of the Two Lands。 And the door I opened is open not only here； but in the minds of the living； in the depths and unknown places of their being； where we are all one in the darkness。 They know it； and they e to me。 And the dead too must e to me； all of them； for I have not lost the magery of the living： they must climb over the wall of stones when I bid them； all the souls； the lords； the mages； the proud women； back and forth from life to death； at my mand。 All must e to me； the living and the dead； I who died and live！〃
〃Where do they e to you； Cob？ Where is it that you are？〃
〃Between the worlds。〃
〃But that is neither life nor death。 What is life； Cob？〃
〃Power。〃
〃What is love？〃
〃Power；〃 the blind man repeated heavily； hunching up his shoulders。
〃What is light？〃
〃Darkness！〃
〃What is your name？〃
〃I have none。〃
〃All in this land bear their true name。〃
〃Tell me yours； then！〃
〃I am named Ged。 And you？〃
The blind man hesitated； and said； 〃Cob。〃
〃That was your use…name； not your name。 Where is your name？ Where is the truth of you？ Did you leave it in Paln where you died？ You have forgotten much； O Lord of the Two Lands。 You have forgotten light； and love； and your own name。〃
〃I have your name now； and power over you； Ged the Archmage… Ged who was Archmage when he was alive！〃
〃My name is no use to you；〃 Ged said。 〃You have no power over me at all。 I am a living man； my body lies on the beach of Selidor； under the sun； on the turning earth。 And when that body dies； I will be here： but only in name； in name alone； in shadow。 Do you not understand？ Did you never understand； you who called up so many shadows from the dead； who summoned all the hosts of the perished； even my lord Erreth…Akbe； wisest of us all？ Did you not understand that he； even he； is but a shadow and a name？ His death did not diminish life。 Nor did it diminish him。 He is there … there； not here！ Here is nothing； dust and shadows。 There； he is the earth and sunlight； the leaves of trees； the eagle's flight。 He is alive。 And all who ever died； live； they are reborn and have no end； nor will there ever be an end。 All； save you。 For you would not have death。 You lost death； you lost life； in order to save yourself。 Yourself！ Your immortal self！ What is it？ Who are you？〃
〃I am myself。 My body will not decay and die…〃
〃A living body suffers pain； Cob； a living body grows old； it dies。 Death is the price we pay for our life and for all life。〃
〃I do not pay it！ I can die and in that moment live again！ I cannot be killed； I am immortal。 I alone am myself forever！〃
〃Who are you； then？〃
〃The Immortal One。〃
〃Say your name
〃The King。〃
〃Say my name。 I told it to you but a minute since。 Say my name！〃
〃You are not real。 You have no name。 Only I exist 〃
〃You exist： without name； without form。 You cannot see the light of day； you cannot see the dark。 You sold the green earth and the sun and stars to save yourself。 But you have no self。 All that which you sold； that is yourself。 You have given everything for nothing。 And so now you seek to draw the world to you； all that light and life you lost； to fill up your nothingness。 But it cannot be filled。 Not all the songs of earth； not all the stars of heaven； could fill your emptiness。〃
Ged's voice rang like iron； there in the cold valley under the mountains； and the blind man cringed away from him。 He lifted up his face； and the dim starlight shone on it； he looked as if he wept； but he had no tears； having no eyes。 His mouth opened and shut； full of darkness； but no words came out of it； only a groaning。 At last he said one word； barely shaping it with his contorted lips； and the word was 〃Life。〃
〃I would give you life if I could； Cob。 But I cannot。 You are dead。 But I can give you death。〃
〃No！〃 the blind man screamed aloud； and then he said； 〃No； no；〃 and crouched down sobbing； though his cheeks were as dry as the stony rivercourse where only night； and no water； ran。 〃You cannot。 No one can ever set me free。 I opened the door between the worlds and I cannot shut it。 No one can shut it。 It will never be shut again。 It draws； it draws me。 I must e back to it。 I must go through it and e back here； into the dust and cold and silence。 It sucks at me and sucks at me。 I cannot leave it。 I cannot close it。 It will suck all the light out of the world in the end。 All the rivers will be like the Dry River。 There is no power anywhere that can close the door I opened！〃
Very strange was the mixture of despair and vindictiveness； terror and vanity； in his words and voice。
Ged said only； 〃Where is it？〃
〃That way。 Not far。 You can go there。 But you cannot do anything there。 You cannot shut it。 If you spent all your power in that one act； it would not be enough。 Nothing is enough。〃
〃Maybe；〃 Ged answered。 〃Though you chose despair； remember we have not yet done so。 Take us there。〃
The blind man raised his face； in which fear and hatred struggled visibly。 Hatred triumphed。 〃I will not；〃 he said。
At that Arren stepped forward； and he said； 〃You will。〃
The blind man held still。 The cold silence and the darkness of the realm of the dead surrounded them； surrounded their words。
〃Who are you？〃
〃My name is Lebannen。〃
Ged spoke： 〃You who call yourself King； do you not know who this is？〃
Again Cob held utterly still。 Then he said； gasping a l
