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ven think I remember things from before my birth。;
;Well察that might explain why you're so ;extraordinary;察─she told him察 but what is it makes me different拭
;Your innocence察─he at once replied察his voice a purr。 ;And your desire not to be。; His hand caressed her rump now察the merest touch of electric fingers tracing the curve of her buttocks察to and fro察to and fro。
Helen sighed察put a piece of straw between her teeth察slowly turned over on to her back。 Her dress rode up even more。 She didn't look at Yulian but gazed wide´eyed at the sloping rows of tiles overhead。 As she turned so he lifted his hand a fraction察but didn't take it away。
;My desire not to be拭Not to be innocent拭What makes you think that拭─And she thought此because it's so obvious
When he answered察Yulian's voice was a man's again。 She hadn't noticed the slow transition察but now she did。
Thick and dark察that voice察as he said察 I've read it。 All girls of your age desire not to be innocent。;
His hand fell on her belly察lingered over her navel察slipped down and crept under the band of her knickers。 She stopped him there察trapping his hand with her own。 ;No察Yulian。 You can't。;
;Can't拭─the word came in a gulp察choking。 ;Why拭
;Because you're right。 I am innocent。 But also because it's the wrong time。;
;Time拭─he was trembling again。
She pushed him away察sighed abruptly and said察 Oh察Yulian´I'm bleeding
;Bleed´拭─He rolled away from her察snatched himself to his feet。 Startled察she stared at him standing there。 He shivered as if in a fever。
;Bleeding察yes察─she said。 ;It's perfectly natural察you know。;
There was no pallor in his face now此it was red with blood察burning like a drunkard's face察with his eyes narrow slits dark as knife slashes。 ;Bleeding ─this time he managed to choke the word out whole。 He reached out his arms towards her察hands hooked like claws察and for a moment she thought he would attack her。 She could see his nostrils flaring察a nervous tic tugging the corner of his mouth。
For the first time she felt afraid察felt something of his strangeness。 ;Yes察─she whispered。 ;It happens every month。。。;
His eyes opened up a little。 Their pupils seemed flecked with scarlet。 A trick of the light。 ;Ah Ah´bleeding ─he said察as though only just understanding her meaning。 ;Oh察yes。。。; Then he reeled察turned away察went a little unsteadily down the steps and was gone。Then Helen had heard the puppy's wild yelp of joy it had been stopped by the steps察which it couldn't climb
and its whining and barking fading as it followed Yulian back to the house。 And finally she started to breathe again。
;Yulian ─she'd called after him then。 ;Your sunglasses察your hat ─But if he heard察he didn't bother to answer。
She wasn't able to find him for the rest of the day察but then she hadn't really looked for him。 And because she had her pride´and also because he had failed to seek her out´she hadn't much bothered with him for the rest of their holiday。 Perhaps it had been for the best察for she had been innocent察after all。 She wouldn't have known what to do察not two years ago。
But when she thought of him察she still remembered his hand burning on her flesh。 And now察going back to Devon with the countryside speeding by outside the car察she found herself wondering if there was still straw in the hayloft。。。
George察too察had his secret thoughts about Yulian。 Anne could say what she liked but she couldn't change that。 He was weird察that lad察and weird in several directions。 It wasn't only the creeping´Jesus aspect that irritated George察though certainly the youth's furtive ways were annoying enough。 But he was sick察too。 Not mental察maybe not even sick in his body察just generally sick。 To look at him sometimes察to catch him unawares with a side´glance察was to look at a cockroach surprised by a switched´on light察or a jellyfish steaming away察stranded on the beach when the tide goes out。 You could almost sense something seething in him。 But if it wasn't mental or physical察and yet enpassed both察then what the hell was it
Hard to explain。 Maybe it was both mind and body´and soul too拭Except George wasn't much of a one for believing in souls。 He didn't disbelieve察but he would like evidence。 He'd probably be praying when he died察just in case察but until then。。。
As for what Anne had said about Yulian at school此well察it was true察as far as it went。 He had taken all of his exams early察and passed every one of them察but that wasn't why he'd left early。 George had a draughtsman察Ian Jones察working for him in his London office察and Jones had a young son in the same school。 Anne would hear none of it察of course not察but the stories had been wild。 Yulian had ;seduced; a male teacher察a half´way´gone gay he'd somehow switched on。 Once over the top察the fellow had apparently turned into a raver察trying to roger every male thing that moved。 He'd blamed Yulian。 That was one thing。 And then
In his art classes察Yulian had painted pictures which caused a very gentle lady teacher to attack him physically察she'd also stormed his bed´space and burned his art folios。 Out nature rambling George hadn't known they still did that Yulian had been found wandering on his own察his face and hands smeared with filth and entrails。 Dangling from one hand he'd carried the remains of a stray kitten。 Its carcass was still warm。 He'd said a man had done it察but this was out on the moors察miles from anywhere。
That wasn't all。 It seemed he walked in his sleep and had apparently scared the living shit out of the younger boys察until the school had had to put a night´guard on their dorms。 But by then the head had spoken at length with Georgina and she'd agreed he could leave。 It was that or expulsion´for the sake of the good name of the school。
And there'd been other things察lesser things察but that had been the gist of it。
These were some of the reasons why George didn't like Yulian。 But of course there was one other thing。 It was something very nearly as old as Yulian himself察but it had fixed itself in George's mind indelibly。
The sight of an old man clutching his sheets to his chest as he died察and his last whispered words此 Christen it拭No察no´you mustn't First have it exorcised
Anne could be strident if she had to be察but she was good through and through。 She would never say a thing to hurt anyone察even though she might think certain things。 To herself´if only to herself´she had to admit that she'd thought things about Yulian。
Now察lying back a little in her seat and stretching察feeling the cooling draught from the half´open window察she thought them again。 Funny things此something about a big green frog察and something about the pain she'd get now and then in her left nipple。
The frog thing was hard to focus on察rather察she didn't like to focus on it。 Personally she couldn't hurt a fly。 Of course a child察a mere five´year old察wouldn't realise what he was doing。 Would he拭The trouble was that as long as she'd know Yulian he'd always seemed to know exactly what he was doing。 Even as a baby。
She had called him a ;funny little thing;察but in fact George was right。 Yulian had been more than just funny。 For one thing察he never cried。 No察not quite true察he had cried when hungry察at least when he was very small。 And he had cried in direct sunlight。 Photophobia察apparently察right from infancy。 Oh察yes察and he'd cried at least one other time察at his christening。 Though that had seemed more rage´or outrage´than crying proper。 As far as Anne knew察he never had been properly christened。
She let her thoughts take hold察carrying her back。 Yulian had just started to walk´to toddle察anyway´when Helen came along。 That was a month or so before poor Georgina had been well enough to go home and take him back。 Anne remembered that time well。 She'd been heavy with milk察fat as butter and happier than at any other time in her life。 And rosy拭What a picture of health she'd been
One day when Helen was just six weeks old察while she was feeding her察Yulian had e toddling like a little robot察looking for that extra ounce of affection of which Helen had robbed him。 Jealousy even then察yes察for he was no longer all important。 On impulse´feeling