srdonaldson.thepowerthatpreserves-第5章

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I　will　make　cannibals　and　cripples　out　of　you。　'Then　the　land　shall　pay　for　its　sabbaths　as　long　as　it　lies　desolate。'
　　　　〃And　do　you　know　what　the　Law　is；　my　friends？　I　can　summarize　it　for　you　in　the　Words　of　the　Apocalypse。　'Thou　shalt　not　be　cowardly；　or　unbelieving；　or　polluted。'　Never　mind　murder；　fornication；　sorcery；　idolatry；　lies。　We're　all　good　people　here。　We　don't　do　things　like　that。　But　have　you　ever　been　afraid？　Have　you　ever　faltered　just　a　bit　in　your　faith？　Have　you　ever　failed　to　keep　yourself　clean　in　heart　and　mind？　'Then　the　land　shall　pay　for　its　sabbaths　as　long　as　it　lies　desolate。'　The　Apostle　Paul　calls　a　spade　a　spade。　He　says；　'That　is　why　many　of　you　are　weak　and　ill；　and　some　have　died。'　But　Jesus　goes　further。　He　says；　'Depart　from　me；　you　cursed；　into　the　eternal　fire　prepared　for　the　devil　and　his　angels。'
　　　　〃Do　I　hear　you　protesting？　Do　I　hear　some　of　you　saying　to　yourselves；　'No　one　can　be　that　good。　I'm　human。　I　can't　be　perfect。'　You're　right！　Of　course；　you're　right。　But　the　Law　of　God　doesn't　care　for　your　excuses。　If　you're　lame；　if　you've　got　arthritis；　if　you're　going　blind　or　your　heart　is　failing；　if　you're　crippled；　if　you've　got　multiple　sclerosis　or　diabetes　or　any　other　of　those　fancy　names　for　sin；　you　can　be　sure　that　the　curse　of　God　is　on　you。　But　if　you're　healthy；　don't　think　you're　safe！　You're　just　lucky　that　God　hasn't　decided　to　'walk　contrary　to　you　in　fury。'　You　can't　be　perfect；　my　friends。　And　the　Law　doesn't　care　how　hard　you　tried。　Instead　of　telling　yourself　what　a　valiant　try　you　made；　listen　to　the　Bible。　The　Old　Covenant　says　to　you　as　plain　as　day；　'The　leper　who　has　the　disease　shall　wear　torn　clothes　and　let　the　hair　of　his　head　hang　loose；　and　he　shall　cover　his　upper　lip　and　cry；　〃Unclean；　unclean。〃　'　〃
　　　　He　held　his　audience　in　the　palm　of　his　hand　now。　The　orotund　resonance　of　his　voice　swept　them　all　together　in　one　ranked　assembly　of　mortality　and　weakness。　Even　Covenant　forgot　himself；　forgot　that　he　was　an　intruder　in　this　canvas　tabernacle；　he　heard　so　many　personal　echoes　and　gleams　in　the　peroration　that　he　could　not　resist　it。　He　was　willing　to　believe　that　he　was　accursed。
　　　　〃Ah；　my　friends；〃　Dr。　Johnson　went　on　smoothly；　〃it's　a　dark　day　for　us　when　illness　strikes；　when　pain　or　dismemberment　or　bereavement　afflict　us；　and　we　can　no　longer　pretend　we're　clean。　But　I　haven't　told　you　about　the　Gospel　yet。　Do　you　remember　Christ　saying；　'He　who　loses　his　life　for　my　sake　shall　find　it'　？　Did　you　hear　Paul　say；　'When　we　are　judged　by　the　Lord；　we　are　chastened　so　that　we　may　not　be　condemned　along　with　the　world'？　Did　you　hear　the　writer　of　the　Apocalypse　say；　'He　who　conquers　shall　have　this　heritage；　and　I　will　be　his　God　and　he　shall　be　my　son'？　There's　another　side；　my　friends。　The　law　is　only　half　of　God's　holy　message。　The　other　half　is　chastening；　heritage；　forgiveness；　healing…the　Mercy　that　matches　God's　Righteousness。　Do　I　have　to　remind　you　that　the　Son　of　God　healed　everyone　who　asked　Him？　Even　lepers？　Do　I　have　to　remind　you　that　He　hung　on　a　cross　erected　in　the　midst　of　misery　and　shame　to　pay　the　price　of　our　sin　for　us？　Do　I　have　to　remind　you　that　the　nails　tore　His　hands　and　feet？　That　the　spear　pierced　His　side？　That　He　was　dead　for　three　days？　Dead　and　in　hell？
　　　　''My　friends；　He　did　it　for　only　one　reason。　He　did　it　to　pay　for　all　our　cowardly；　unbelieving；　unclean　sabbaths；　so　that　we　could　be　healed。　And　all　you　have　to　do　to　get　healed　is　to　believe　it；　and　accept　it；　and　love　Him　for　it。　All　you　have　to　do　is　say　with　the　man　whose　child　was　dying；　'I　believe；　help　my　unbelief！'　Five　little　words；　my　friends。　When　they　e　from　the　heart；　they're　enough　to　pay　for　the　whole　Kingdom　of　Righteousness。〃
　　　　As　if　on　cue；　Matthew　Logan　stood　up　and　began　singing　in　soft　descant；　〃Blessed　assurance；　Jesus　is　mine。〃　Against　this　background；　Dr。　Johnson　folded　his　hands　and　said；　〃My　friends；　pray　with　me。〃
　　　　At　once；　every　head　in　the　audience　dropped。　Covenant；　too；　bowed。　But　the　wound　on　his　forehead　burned　extravagantly　in　that　position。　He　looked　up　again　as　Dr。　Johnson　said；　〃Close　your　eyes；　my　friends。　Shut　out　your　neighbors；　your　children；　your　parents；　your　mate。　Shut　out　every　distraction。　Look　inward；　my　friends。　Look　deep　inside　yourselves；　and　see　the　sickness　there。　Hear　the　voice　of　God　saying；　Thou　art　weighed　in　the　balance；　and　found　wanting。'　Pray　with　me　in　your　hearts。
　　　　〃Dear　holy　Jesus；　Thou　art　our　only　hope。　Only　Thy　Divine　Mercy　can　heal　the　disease　which　riddles　our　courage；　rots　the　fiber　of　our　faith；　dirties　us　in　Thy　sight。　Only　Thou　canst　touch　the　sickness　which　destroys　peace；　and　cure　it。　We　lay　bare　our　hearts　to　Thee；　Lord。　Help　us　to　find　the　courage　for　those　five　difficult；　difficult　words；　'I　believe；　help　my　unbelief！'　Dear　Lord；　please　give　us　the　courage　to　be　healed。〃
　　　　Without　a　break；　he　raised　his　arms　over　the　audience　and　continued；　'　'Do　you　feel　His　spirit；　my　friends？　Do　you　feel　it　in　your　hearts？　Do　you　feel　the　finger　of　His　Righteousness　probing　the　sick　spot　in　your　soul　and　body　？　If　you　do；　e　forward　now；　and　let　me　pray　for　health　with　you。''
　　　　He　bowed　his　head　in　silent　supplication　while　he　waited　for　the　repentant　to　heed　his　call。　But　Covenant　was　already　on　his　way　down　the　aisle。　The　usher　made　a　furtive　movement　to　stop　him；　then　backed　off　as　several　members　of　the　audience　looked　up。　Covenant　stalked　feverishly　the　length　of　the　tent；　climbed　the　rough　wooden　steps　to　the　platform；　and　stopped　facing　Dr。　Johnson。　His　eyes　glistered　as　he　said　in　a　raw　whisper；　〃Help　me。〃
　　　　The　man　was　shorter　than　he　had　appeared　to　be　from　the　audience。　His　black　suit　was　shiny；　and　his　shirt　soiled　from　long　use。　He　had　not　shaved　recently；　stiff；　grizzled　whiskers　roughened　his　jowls　and　cheeks。　His　face　wore　an　uncertain　aspect…almost　an　expression　of　alarm…as　Covenant　confronted　him；　but　he　quickly　masked　it　with　blandness；　and　said　in　a　tone　of　easy　sonority；　〃Help　you；　son？　Only　God　can　help　you。　But　I　will　joyfully　add　my　prayers　to　the　cry　of　any　contrite　heart。〃　He　placed　a　hand　firmly　on　Covenant's　shoulder。　〃Kneel；　son；　and　pray　with　me。　Let's　ask　the　Lord　for　help　together。〃
　　　　Covenant　wanted　to　kneel；　wanted　to　submit　to　the　manding　spell　of　Dr。　Johnson's　hand　and　voice。　But　his　knees　were　locked　with　urgency　and　inanition。　The　pain　in　his　forehead　flamed　like　acid　gnawing　at　his　brain。　He　felt　that　if　he　bent　at　all　he　would　collapse　pletely。　〃Help　me；〃　he　whispered　again。　〃I　can't　stand　it。〃
　　　　Dr。　Johnson's　face　became　stern　at　Covenant's　resistance。　〃Are　you　repentant；　son？〃　he　asked　gravely。　〃Have　you　found　the　sick　spot　of　sin　in　your　soul？　Do　you　truly　ache　for　Almighty　God's　Divine　Mercy？〃
　　　　〃I　am　sick；''　Covenant　responded　as　if　he　were　answering　a　litany。　〃I　have　mitted　crimes。〃
　　　　〃And　do　you　repent？　Can　you　say　those　five　difficult　words　with　all　the　honest　pain　of　your　heart？〃
　　　　Covenant's　jaw　locked　involuntarily。　Through　clenched　teeth；　he　said　as　if　he　were　whimpering；　〃Help　my　unbelief。〃
　　　　〃Son；　that's　not　enough。　You　know　that's　not　enough。〃　Dr。　Johnson's　sternness　changed　to　righteous　judgment。　〃Do　not　dare　to　mock　God。　He　will　cast　you　out　forever。　Do　you　believe？　Do　you　believe　in　God's　own　health？〃
　　　　〃I　do〃…Covenant　struggled　to　move　his　jaw；　but　his　teeth　clung　together　as　if　they　had　been　fused　by　despair…〃I　do　not　believe。〃
　　　　Behind　him；　Matthew　Logan　stopped　singing　his　descant。　The　abrupt　silence　echoed　in　Covenant's　ears　like　ridicule。　Abjectly；　he　breathed；　〃I'm　a　leper。〃
　　　　He　could　tell　by　the　curious；　expectant　faces　in　the　first　rows　of　the　audience　that　the　people　had　not　heard　him；　did　not　recognize　him。　He　was　not　surprised；　he　felt　that　he　had　been　altered　past　all　recognition　by　his　delusions。　And　even　in　his　long…past　days　of　health　he　had　never　been　associated　with　the　more　religious　townspeople。　But　Dr。　Johnson　heard。　His　eyes　bulged　dangerously　in　their　sockets；　and　he　spoke　so　softly　that　his　words　barely　reached　Covenant。　〃I　don't　know　who　put　you　up　to　this　but　you　won't　get　away　with　it。〃
　　　　With　hardly　a　pause；　he　began　speaking　for　the　people