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d floated out of my mind in a week's time）； but the little red Testament didn't seem like enough when you were maybe going to face the Devil himself； not even when the words of Jesus were marked out in red ink。
My father looked at the old Bible； swelled with family documents and pictures； and I thought he'd tell me to put it back； but he didn't。 A look of mixed grief and sympathy crossed his face； and he nodded。 'All right；' he said。 'Does your mother know you took that？'
'No； sir。'
He nodded again。 'Then we'll hope she doesn't spot it gone before we get back。 e on。 And don't drop it。'
Half an hour or so later； the two of us stood on the bank looking down at the place where Castle Stream forked； and at the flat place where I'd had my encounter with the man with the red…orange eyes。 I had my bamboo rod in my hand…I'd picked it up below the bridge…and my creel lay down below； on the flat place。 Its wicker top was flipped back。 We stood looking down； my father and I； for a long time； and neither of us said anything。
Opal！ Diamond！ Sapphire！ Jade！ I smell Gary's lemonade！ That had been his unpleasant little poem； and once he had recited it； he had thrown himself on his back； laughing like a child who has just discovered he has enough courage to say bathroom words like shit or piss。 The flat place down there was as green and lush as any place in Maine that the sun can get to in early July 。 。 。 except where the stranger had lain。 There the grass was dead and yellow in the shape of a man。
I looked down and saw I was holding our lumpy old family Bible straight out in front of me with both thumbs pressing so hard on the cover that they were white。 It was the way Mama Sweet's husband Norville held a willow…fork when he was trying to dowse somebody a well。
'Stay here；' my father said at last； and skidded sideways down the bank； digging his shoes into the rich soft soil and holding his arms out for balance。 I stood where I was； holding the Bible stiffly out at the ends of my arms like a willow…fork； my heart thumping wildly。 I don't know if I had a sense of being watched that time or not； I was too scared to have a sense of anything； except for a sense of wanting to be far away from that place and those woods。
My Dad bent down； sniffed at where the grass was dead； and grimaced。 I knew what he was smelling： something like burnt matches。 Then he grabbed my creel and came on back up the bank； hurrying。 He snagged one fast look over his shoulder to make sure nothing was ing along behind。 Nothing was。 When he handed me the creel； the lid was still hanging back on its cunning little leather hinges。 I looked inside and saw nothing but two handfuls of grass。
'Thought you said you caught a rainbow；' my father said； 'but maybe you dreamed that； too。'
Something in his voice stung me。 'No； sir；' I said。 'I caught one。'
'Well； it sure as hell didn't flop out； not if it was gutted and cleaned。 And you wouldn't put a catch into your fisherbox without doing that； would you； Gary？ I taught you better than that。'
'Yes； sir； you did； but…'
'So if you didn't dream catching it and if it was dead in the box； something must have e along and eaten it；' my father said； and then he grabbed another quick glance over his shoulder； eyes wide； as if he had heard something move in the woods。 I wasn't exactly surprised to see drops of sweat standing out on his forehead like big clear jewels。 'e on；' he said。 'Let's get the hell out of here。'
I was for that； and we went back along the bank to the bridge； walking quick without speaking。 When we got there； my Dad dropped to one knee and examined the place where we'd found my rod。 There was another patch of dead grass there； and the lady's slipper was all brown and curled in on itself； as if a blast of heat had charred it。 While my father did this； I looked in my empty creel。
'He must have gone back and eaten my other fish； too；' I said。
My father looked up at me。 'Other fish！'
'Yes； sir。 I didn't tell you； but I caught a brookie； too。 A big one。 He was awful hungry； that fella。' I wanted to say more； and the words trembled just behind my lips； but in the end I didn't。
We climbed up to the bridge and helped one another over the railing。 My father took my creel； looked into it； then went to the railing and threw it over。 I came up beside him in time to see it splash down and float away like a boat； riding lower and lower in the stream as the water poured in between the wicker weavings。
'It smelled bad；' my father said； but he didn't look at me when he said it； and his voice sounded oddly defensive。 It was the only time I ever heard him speak just that way。
'Yes； sir。'
'We'll tell your mother we couldn't find it。 If she asks。 If she doesn't ask； we won't tell her anything。'
'No； sir； we won't。'
And she didn't and we didn't and that's the way it was。
That day in the woods is eighty…one years gone； and for many of the years in between I have never even thought of it 。 。 。 not awake； at least。 Like any other man or woman who ever lived； I can't say about my dreams； not for sure。 But now I'm old； and I dream awake； it seems。 My infirmities have crept up like waves which will soon take a child's abandoned sand castle； and my memories have also crept up； making me think of some old rhyme that went； in part； 'Just leave them alone/And they'll e home/Wagging their tails behind them。' I remember meals I ate； games I played； girls I kissed in the school cloakroom when we played Post Office； boys I chummed with； the first drink I ever took； the first cigarette I ever smoked （cornshuck behind Dicky Hammer's pig…shed； and I threw up）。 Yet of all the memories； the one of the man in the black suit is the strongest； and glows with its own spectral； haunted light。 He was real； he was the Devil； and that day I was either his errand or his luck。 I feel more and more strongly that escaping him was my luck…just luck； and not the intercession of the God I have worshipped and sung hymns to all my life。
As I lie here in my nursing…home room； and in the ruined sand castle that is my body； I tell myself that I need not fear the Devil…that I have lived a good； kindly life； and I need not fear the Devil。 Sometimes I remind myself that it was I； not my father； who finally coaxed my mother back to church later on that summer。 In the dark； however； these thoughts have no power to ease or fort。 In the dark es a voice which whispers that the nine…year…old boy I was had done nothing for which he might legitimately fear the devil either 。 。 。 and yet the Devil came。 And in the dark I sometimes hear that voice drop even lower； into ranges which are inhuman。 Big fish！ it whispers in tones of hushed greed； and all the truths of the moral world fall to ruin before its hunger。 Biiig fiiish！
The Devil came to me once； long ago； suppose he were to e again now？ I am too old to run now； I can't even get to the bathroom and back without my walker。 I have no fine large brook trout with which to propitiate him； either； even for a moment or two； I am old and my creel is empty。 Suppose he were to e back and find me so？
And suppose he is still hungry？
My favorite Nathaniel Hawthorne story is 'Young Goodman Brown。' I think it's one of the ten best stories ever written by an American。 'The Man in the Black Suit' is my hommage to it。 As for the particulars； I was talking with a friend of mine one day； and he happened to mention that his Grandpa believed…truly believed…that he had seen the Devil in the woods； back around the turn of the twentieth century。 Grandpa said the Devil came walking out of the woods and started talking to him just like a natural man。 While Grandpa was chinning with him； he realized that the man from the woods had burning red eyes and smelled like sulfur。 My friend's Grandpa became convinced that the Devil would kill him if he realized Grandpa had caught on； so he did his best to make normal conversation until he could eventually get away。 My story grew from my friend's story。 Writing it was no fun； but I went on with it； anyway。 Sometimes stories cry out to be told in such loud voices that you write
