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nd; excitable boy he had been; and I thought of what he was now: a force of fire and disruption approaching the sands of the island like a mad angel; head swarming with echoing screams of madness and delusion。
  
  I leaned forward and put my right hand palm down on the top of the old dog's cranium; keeping my eyes closed。 The candle was not long lit; and the bone was only warm。 Some unpleasant; cynical part of my mind told me that I looked like Mr Spock in Star Trek; doing a mind…meld or whatever; but I ignored it; that didn't matter anyway。 I breathed deeply; thought more deeply。 Eric's face swam in front of me; freckles and sandy hair and anxious smile。 A young face; thin and intelligent and young; the way I thought of him when I tried to remember him when he was happy; during our summers together on the island。
  
  I concentrated; pressured my guts and held my breath; as though I was trying to force a turd out when constipated; the blood roared in my ears。 With my other hand I used forefinger and thumb to press my closed eyes into my own skull while my other hand grew hot on Old Saul's。 I saw lights; random patterns like spreading ripples or huge fingerprints; swirling。
  
  I felt my stomach clench itself involuntarily and a wave of what felt like fiery excitement swept up from it。 Only acids and glands; I knew; but I felt it transport me; from one skull through another to another。 Eric! I was getting through! I could feel him; feel the aching feet; the blistered soles; the quivering legs; the sweat…stuck grimy hands; the itching; unwashed scalp; I could smell him as myself; see through those eyes that hardly closed and burned in his skull; raw and shot with blood; blinking drily。 I could feel the remains of some awful meal lying dead in my stomach; taste burned meat and bone and fur on my tongue; I was there! I was…
  
  A blast of fire crashed out at me。 I was thrown back; slammed away from the altar like a piece of soft shrapnel and bounced off the earth…covered concrete floor to e to rest by the far wall; my head buzzing; my right hand aching。 I fell over to one side and curled up around myself。
  
  I lay breathing deeply for a while; hugging my sides and rocking very slightly; my head scraping on the floor of the Bunker。 My right hand felt as though it was the size and colour of a boxing…glove。 With every slowing beat of my heart it sent a pulse of pain up my arm。 I crooned to myself and slowly sat up; rubbing my eyes and still rocking very slightly; my knees and head ing a little closer; drawing slightly back。 I tried to nurse my battered ego back to health。
  
  Across the Bunker; as the dim view swam back to focus; I could see the skull still glowing; the flame still burning。 I glared at it and brought my right hand up; started licking it。 I looked to see if my flight across the floor had damaged anything but as far as I could see everything was in its place; only I had been affected。 I gave a shivery sigh and relaxed; letting my head rest on the cool concrete of the wall behind me。
  
  I leaned forward after a while and placed the palm of my hand; still throbbing; on the floor of the Bunker; letting it cool。 I kept it there for a while; then brought it up and wiped some of the soil off it; squinting to see if there was any visible damage; but the light was too poor。 I got slowly to my feet and went to the altar。 I lit the side candles with shaking hands; put the wasp with the rest in the plastic rack to the left of the altar and burned its temporary coffin on the metal plate in front of Old Saul。 Eric's photograph took flame; the boyish face disappearing in fire。 I blew through one of Old Saul's eyes and put the candle out。
  
  I stood for a moment; collecting my thoughts; then went to the metal door of the Bunker and opened it。 The silky light of a cloud…bright morning flooded in and made me grimace。 I turned back; put out the other candles and took another look at my hand。 The palm was red and inflamed。 I licked it again。
  
  Almost I had succeeded。 I was sure I had had Eric in my grasp; had his mind there under my hand and been part of him; seen the world through his eyes; heard his blood pump in his head; felt the ground beneath his feet; smelled his body and tasted his last meal。 But he had been too much for me。 The conflagration in his head was just too strong for anybody sane to cope with。 It had a lunatic strength of total mitment about it which only the profoundly mad are continually capable of; and the most ferocious soldiers and most aggressive sportsmen able to emulate for a while。 Every particle of Eric's brain was concentrated on his mission of returning and setting fire; and no normal brain…not even mine; which was far from normal and more powerful than most… could match that marshalling of forces。 Eric was mitted to Total War; a Jihad; he was riding the Divine Wind to at least his own destruction; and there was nothing I could do about it this way。
  
  I locked up the Bunker and went back along the beach to the house; my head down again and even more thoughtful and troubled than I had been on the outward journey。
  
  I spent the rest of the day in the house; reading books and magazines; watching television; and thinking all the time。 I could not do anything about Eric from the inside; so I had to change the direction of my attack。 My personal mythology; with the Factory behind it; was flexible enough to accept the failure it had just suffered and use such a defeat as a pointer to the real solution。 My advance troops had had their fingers burned; but I still had all my other resources。 I would prevail; but not through the direct application of my powers。 At least; not through the direct application of any other power but imaginative intelligence; and that; ultimately; was the bedrock for everything else。 If it could not meet the challenge that Eric represented; then I deserved to be destroyed。
  
  My father was still painting; hauling his way up ladders to windows with the paint…tin and brush clenched between his teeth。 I offered to help; but he insisted on doing it himself。 I had used the ladders myself several times in the past when I was trying to find a way into my father's study; but he had special locks on the windows; and even kept the blinds down and curtains drawn。 I was glad to see the difficulty he had making his way up the ladder。 He'd never make it up into the loft。 It crossed my mind that it was just as well the house was the height it was; or he might just have been able to climb a ladder to the roof and be able to see through the skylights into the loft。 But we were both safe; our mutual citadels secure for the foreseeable future。
  
  For once my father let me make the dinner; and I made a vegetable curry we would both find acceptable while watching an Open University programme on geology on the portable television; which I had taken through to the kitchen for the purpose。 Once the business with Eric was over; I decided; I really must restart my campaign to persuade my father to get a VCR。 It was too easy to miss good programmes on fine days。
  
  After our meal my father went into town。 This was unusual; but I didn't ask why he was going。 He looked tired after his day spent climbing and reaching; but he went up to his room; changed into his town clothes; and came limping back into the lounge to bid me farewell。
  
  'I'll be off; then;' he said。 He looked round the lounge as though searching for some evidence I had started some heinous mischief already; before he had even left。 I watched the TV and nodded without looking at him。
  
  'Right you are;' I said。
  
  'I won't be late。 You don't have to lock up。'
  
  'OK。'
  
  'You'll be all right; then?'
  
  'Oh; yes。' I looked at him; crossed my arms and settled deeper into the old easy chair。 He stepped back; so that both feet were in the hall and his body was canted into the lounge; only his hand on the door…knob stopping him from falling in。 He nodded again; the cap on his head dipping once。
  
  'Right。 I'll see you later。 See you behave yourself。'
  
  I smiled and looked back to the screen。 'Yes

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