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the answer to the greatest questions humans and immortal have ever posed。 He looked to me for answers!
 Then glancing back again at the dead Cassiodorus; he ran to me; across the sloping grass; and the need came out of him; poured from him; his arms out as it beheld me。 Could I not explain? Could I not contain in some Divine Design the mystery of the loss of Cassiodorus! Cassiodorus who had with his Vivarium rivaled the hive of bees in elegance and glory! It was Vivarium which had drawn this consciousness together from the hives! Could I not ease this creature's pain!
 〃There are horrors in this world;〃 I whispered。 〃It is made up of mystery and dependent upon mystery。 If you would have peace; go back to the hives; lose your human shape; and descend again; fragmented into the mindless life of the contented bees from which you rose。〃
 He was fixed; and he listened to me。
 〃If you would have fleshly life; human life; hard life which can move through time and space; then fight for it。 If you would have human philosophy then struggle and make yourself wise; so that nothing can hurt you ever。 Wisdom is strength。 Collect yourself; whatever you are; into something with a purpose。
 〃But know this。 All is speculation under the sky。 All myth; all religion; all philosophy; all history … is lies。〃
 The thing; whether it be male or female; drew up its bundled straw hands; as if to cover its mouth。 I turned my back on it。
 I walked away silently through the vineyards。 In a little while the monks would discover that their Father Superior; their genius; their saint; had died at his work。
 I looked back in amazement to discover that the figure of straw remained; organized; assuming the posture of an upright being; watching me。
 〃I will not believe in you!〃 I shouted back to this man of straw。 〃I will not search with you for any answer! But know this: if you would bee an organized being as you see in me; love all mankind and womankind and all their children。 Do not take your strength from blood! Do not feed on suffering。 Do not rise like a god above crowds chanting in adoration。 Do not lie!〃
 It listened。 It heard。 It remained still。
 I ran。 I ran and ran up the rocky slopes and through the forests of Calabria until I was far far away from it。 Under the moon; I saw the sprawling majesty of Vivarium with its cloisters and sloped roofs as it surrounded the shores of its shimmering inlet from the sea。
 I never saw the straw creature again。 I don't know what it was。 I don't want you to ask me any question about it。
 You tell me spirits and ghosts walk。 We know such beings exist。 But that was the last I saw of that being。
 And when next I drifted through Italy; Vivarium had been long destroyed。 The earthquakes had shaken loose the last of its walls。 Had it been sacked first by the next wave of ignorant tall men of Northern Europe; the Vandals? Was it an earthquake that brought about its ruin?
 No one knows。 What survives of it are the letters that Cassiodorus sent to others。
 Soon the classics were declared profane。 Pope Gregory wrote tales of magic and miracles; because it was the only way to convert thousands of superstitious uncatechized Northern tribes to Christianity in great en masse baptisms。
 He conquered the warriors Rome could never conquer。
 The history of Italy for one hundred years falls into absolute darkness after Cassiodorus。 How do the books put it? For a century; nothing is heard from Italy。
 Ah; what a silence!
 Now David; as you e to these final pages; I must confess; I have left you。 The smiles with which I gave you these notebooks were deceptive。 Feminine wiles; Marius would call them。 My promise to meet with you tomorrow night here in Paris was a lie。 I will have left Paris by the time you e to these lines。 I go to New Orleans。
 It's your doing; David。 You have transformed me。 You have given me a desperate faith that in narrative there is a shadow of meaning。 I now know a new strident energy。 You have trained me through your demand upon my language and my memory to live again; to believe again that some good exists in this world。
 I want to find Marius。 Thoughts of other immortals fill the air。 Cries; pleas; strange messages。。。
 One who was believed gone from us is now apparently known to have survived。
 I have strong reason to believe that Marius has gone to New Orleans; and I must be reunited with him。 I must seek out Lestat; to see this fallen brat Prince lying on the chapel floor unable to speak or move。
 e join me; David。 Don't fear Marius! I know he will e to help Lestat。 I do the same。
 e back to New Orleans。
 Even if Marius is not there; I want to see Lestat。 I want to see the others again。 What have you done; David? I now contain … with this new curiosity; with this flaming capacity to care once more; with reborn capacity to sing … I now contain the awful capacity to want and to love。
 For that; if for nothing else; and there is indeed much more; I shall always thank you。 No matter what suffering is to e; you have quickened me。 And nothing you do or say will ever cause the death of my love for you。
 
 
 
 
 
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