cb.damnationgame-第100章
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ake her stop； and when that failed he slapped her hard across the face。 For an instant the flow of conjuring was interrupted。 The tree and its inhabitants plained with growls。 He slapped her again； harder。 The fever behind her lids had begun to abate； he saw。 He called to her again； and shook her。 Her mouth lolled open； the tics and terrible intentionality left her face。 The tree trembled。
〃Please 。 。 。〃 he begged her； 〃wake up。〃 The black leaves shrank upon themselves； the fevered limbs lost their ambition。
She opened her eyes。
Murmuring its chagrin； the rot rotted and went away into nothingness。
The mark of his hand was still ripening on her cheek； but she was apparently unaware of his blows。 Her voice was blurred by sleep as she said： 〃What's wrong？〃 He held her tight； not having any answer he felt brave enough to voice。 He only said： 〃You were dreaming。〃 She looked at him； puzzled。 〃I don't remember；〃； she said； and then； being aware of his trembling hands： 〃What's happened？〃 〃A nightmare；〃 he said。
〃Why am I out of bed？〃 〃I was trying to wake you。〃 She stared at him。 〃I don't want to be woken；〃 she said。 〃I'm tired enough as it is。〃 She disengaged herself。 〃I want to go back to bed。〃 He let her return to the crumpled sheets and lie down。 She was asleep again before he had crossed to her。 He did not join her； but sat up until dawn； watching her sleep； and trying to keep the memories at bay。
〃I'm going back to the hotel；〃 he told her in the middle of the next day； this very day。 He'd hoped she might have some explanation for the events of the previous night…frail hope！…that she might tell him it was some stray illusion that she had managed at last to spit out。 But she had no such reassurances to offer。 When he asked her if she remembered anything of the preceding night she replied that she dreamed nothing these nights； and was glad of it。 Nothing。 He repeated the word like a death sentence； thinking of the empty room in Caliban Street； of how nothing was the essence of his fear。
Seeing his distress； she reached across to him and touched his face。…His skin was hot。 It was raining outside； but the room was clammy。
〃The European's dead；〃 she told him。
〃I have to see for myself。〃 〃There's no need； babe。〃 〃If he's dead and gone； why do you talk in your sleep？〃 〃Do I？〃 〃Talk； and make illusions。〃 〃Maybe I'm writing a book；〃 she said。 The attempt at levity was stillborn。 〃We've got plenty of problems without going back there。〃 That was true； there was much to decide。 How to tell this story； for one； and how to be believed for another。 How to give themselves into the hands of the law and not be accused of murders known and unknown。 There was a fortune waiting for Carys somewhere； she was her father's sole beneficiary。 That too was a reality that had to be faced。
〃Mamoulian's dead；〃 she told him。 〃Can't we forget about him for a while？ When they find the bodies we'll tell the whole story。 But not yet。 I want to rest for a few days。〃 〃You made something appear last night。 Here； in this room。 I saw it。〃 〃Why are you so certain it's me？〃 she retorted。 〃Why should I be the one who's still obsessed？ Are you sure it isn't you who's keeping this alive？〃 〃Me？〃 〃Not able to let it go。〃 〃Nothing would make me happier！〃 〃Then forget it； damn you！ Let it be； Marty！ He's gone。 Dead and gone！ And that's the end of it！〃 She left him to turn the accusation over in his head。 Maybe it was him； maybe he'd just dreamed the tree； and was blaming her for his own paranoia。 But in her absence his doubts conspired。 How could he trust her？ If the European was alive…somehow； somewhere…couldn't he put those arguments into her mouth； to keep Marty from interfering？ He spent the time she was out in an agony of indecision； not knowing a way forward that wasn't tainted with suspicion； but lacking the strength to face the hotel again； and so prove the matter one way or the other。
Then； in the late afternoon； she'd returned。 They'd said nothing； or very little； and after a while she'd gone back to bed； plaining of an aching head。 After half an hour sharing the room with her sleeping presence； hearing only her even breath （no chatter this time）； he'd gone out for whisky and a paper； scanning it for news of discovery or pursuit。 There was nothing。 World events dominated； where there were not cyclones or wars there were cartoons and racing results。 He headed back to the flat prepared to forget his doubts； to tell her that she'd been right all along； only to find the bedroom locked and from the inside her voice…softened by sleep…stumbling toward a new coherence。
He broke in and tried to wake her； but this time neither shaking nor slaps made any impression upon her possessed slumber。
74
And he was almost there now。 He wasn't dressed for the cold that was creeping on； and he shivered as he crossed the desolation to the Hotel Pandemonium。 Autumn was making its presence felt early this year； not even waiting for the beginning of September to chill the air。 In the weeks since he'd last stood on this spot the summer had given in to rain and wind。 He was not unhappy with its desertion。 Summer heat in small rooms would never have benign associations for him again。
He looked up at the hotel。 It was coral…colored in the sliding light…the details of scorch marks and graffiti looked almost too real。 A portrait by an obsessive； each detail in absolute focus。 He watched the facade awhile； to see if something signaled to him。 Perhaps a window might wink； a door grimace； anything to prepare him for what he might discover inside。 But it remained politic。 Just a solid building； face staled with age and flame； catching the last light of the day。
The front door had been closed by the last visitor to leave the hotel； but no attempt had been made to replace the boards。 Marty pushed； and the door opened； grinding across the plaster and dirt on the floor。 Inside； nothing had changed。 The chandelier tinkled as a gust from outside trespassed into the sanctum； a dry rain of dust flitted down。
As he climbed the first two flights； a smell began to infiltrate； something riper than damp or ash。 Presumably the bodies would still be where they'd been left。 Substantial decay would have set in。 He didn't know how long such processes took； but after the experiences of recent weeks he was prepared for the worst； even the strengthening smell as he ascended scarcely touched him。
He halted halfway up and took out the bottle of Scotch he'd bought； unscrewed the top； and； still eyeing the remaining flights of stairs； put the bottle to his lips。 The mouthful of spirits sluiced his gums and throat； and scorched its way down into his belly。 He resisted the temptation to take a second swig。 Instead； he resealed the bottle and pocketed it before continuing up。
Memories began to besiege him。 He'd hoped to keep them at bay； but they came unbidden； and he wasn't strong enough to resist them。 There were no pictures； just voices。 They echoed around his skull as if it were empty； as if he were simply some mindless brute answering the call of a superior mind。 The urge to turn tail and run came over him； but he knew that if he capitulated now； and went back to her； the qualms would only deepen。 Soon he'd be suspecting every twitch of her arm； wondering if the European was preparing her for murder。 It would be another kind of prison： its walls suspicion； its bars doubt； and he'd be sentenced to it for the rest of his life。 Even if Carys left； wouldn't he still be glancing over his shoulder as the years passed； watching for a someone to appear who had a face behind his face； and the European's unforgiving eyes？
And still； with every step taken； his fears multiplied。 He gripped the filthy banister； and forced himself onward and upward。 I don't want to go； the child in him plained。 Don't make me go； please。 Easy enough to turn around； easy enough to delay the whole thing。 Look！ Your feet will do it； just say the word。 Go back！ She'll wake eventually； just be patient。 Go back！
And if she doesn't wake？ the voice of reason replied。 And that made him go on。
As he took another step； something moved on the landing ahead o
