rh.theassassinsapprentice-第29章
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ike Chivalry。 From what I hear； he has ideas enough； and we can thank our dear father for that。 e on。 We've got a message to deliver。〃
Regal jerked his mount's head up again and then set spurs to him。 I watched him go； and for an instant I swear all I thought was that I should go by the stable when I got back to the keep； to check on the poor beast and see how badly his mouth was bruised。 But for some reason I looked up at Verity and said； 〃My father's dead。〃
He sat still on his horse。 Bigger and bulkier than Regal； he still always sat a horse better。 I think it was the soldier in him。 He looked at me in silence for a moment。 Then he said； 〃Yes。 My brother's dead。〃 He granted me that； my uncle； that instant of kinship； and I think that ever after it changed how I saw the man。 〃Up behind me； boy； and I'll take you back to the keep；〃 he offered。
〃No； thank you。 Burrich would take my hide off for riding a horse double on this road。〃
〃That he would； boy；〃 Verity agreed kindly。 Then： 〃I'm sorry you found out this way。 I wasn't thinking。 It does not seem it can be real。〃 I caught a glimpse of his true grief； and then he leaned forward and spoke to his horse and it sprang forward。 In moments I was alone on the road again。
A fine misting rain began and the last natural light died； and still I stood there。 I looked up at the keep； black against the stars； with here and there a bit of light spilling out。 For a moment I thought of setting my basket down and running away； running off into the darkness and never ing back。 Would anyone ever e looking for me？ I wondered。 But instead I shifted my basket to my other arm and began my slow trudge back up the hill。
CHAPTER SEVEN
An Assignment
THERE WERE RUMORS OF poison when Queen Desire died。 I choose to put in writing here what I absolutely know as truth。 Queen Desire did die of poisoning； but it had been self…administered； over a long period of time； and was none of her king's doing。 Often he had tried to dissuade her from using intoxicants as freely as she did。 Physicians had been consulted； as well as herbalists； but no sooner had he persuaded her to desist from one than she discovered another to try。
Toward the end of the last summer of her life； she became even more reckless； using several kinds simultaneously and no longer making any attempts to conceal her habits。 Her behaviors were a great trial for Shrewd； for when she was drunk with wine or incensed with smoke； she would make wild accusations and inflammatory statements with no heed at all as to who was present or what the occasion was。 One would have thought that her excesses toward the end of her life would have disillusioned her followers。 To the contrary； they declared either that Shrewd had driven her to self…destruction or poisoned her himself。 But I can say with plete knowledge that her death was not of the King's doing。
Burrich cut my hair for mourning。 He left it only a finger's width long。 He shaved his own head； even his beard and eyebrows； for his grief。 The pale parts of his head contrasted sharply with his ruddy cheeks and nose； it made him look very strange； stranger even than the forest men who came to town with their hair stuck down with pitch and their teeth dyed red and black。 Children stared at those wild men and whispered to one another behind their hands as they passed； but they cringed silently from Burrich。 I think it was his eyes。 I've seen holes in a skull that had more life in them than Burrich's eyes had during those days。
Regal sent a man to 'rebuke Burrich for shaving his head and cutting my hair。 That was mourning for a crowned king； not for a man who had abdicated the throne。 Burrich stared at the man until he left。 Verity cut a hand's width from his hair and beard； as that was mourning for a brother。 Some of the keep guards cut varying lengths from their braided queues； as a fighting man does for a fallen rade。 But what Burrich had done to himself and to me was extreme。 People stared。 I wanted to ask him why I should mourn for a father I had never even seen； for a father who had never e to see me； but a look at his frozen eyes and mouth and I hadn't dared。 No one mentioned to Regal the mourning lock he cut from each horse's mane； or the stinking fire that consumed all the sacrificial hair。 I had a sketchy idea that meant Burrich was sending parts of our spirits along with Chivalry's； it was some custom he had from his grandmother's people。
It was as if Burrich had died。 A cold force animated his body； performing all his tasks flawlessly but without warmth or satisfaction。 Underlings who had formerly vied for the briefest nod of praise from him now turned aside from his glance； as if shamed for him。 Only Vixen did not forsake him。 The old bitch slunk after him wherever he went； unrewarded by any look or touch； but always there。 I hugged her once； in sympathy； and even dared to quest toward her； but I encountered only a numbness frightening to touch minds with。 She grieved with her master。
The winter storms cut and snarled around the cliffs。
The days possessed a lifeless cold that denied any possibility of spring。 Chivalry was buried at Withywoods。 There was a Grieving Fast at the keep； but it was brief and subdued。 It was more an observation of correct form than a true Grieving。 Those who truly mourned him seemed to be judged guilty of poor taste。 His public life should have ended with his abdication； how tactless of him to draw further attention to himself by actually dying。
A full week after my father died I awoke to the familiar draft from the secret staircase and the yellow light that beckoned me。 I rose and hastened up the stairs to my refuge。 It would be good to get away from all the strangeness； to mingle herbs and make strange smokes with Chade again。 I needed no more of the odd suspension of self that I'd felt since I'd heard of Chivalry's death。
But the worktable end of his chamber was dark； its hearth was cold。 Instead； Chade was seated before his own fire。 He beckoned to me to sit beside his chair。 I sat and looked up at him； but he was staring at the fire。 He lifted his scarred hand and let it e to rest on my quillish hair。 For a while we just sat like that； watching the fire together。
〃Well； here we are； my boy；〃 he said at last； and then nothing more； as if he had said all he needed to。 He ruffled my short hair。
〃Burrich cut my hair；〃 I told him suddenly。
〃So I see。〃
〃I hate it。 It prickles against my pillow and I can't sleep。 My hood won't stay up。 And I look stupid。〃
〃You look like a boy mourning his father。〃
I was silent a moment。 I had thought of my hair as being a longer version of Burrich's extreme cut。 But Chade was right。 It was the length for a boy mourning his father； not a subject mourning a king。 That only made me angrier。
〃But why should I mourn him？〃 I asked Chade as I hadn't dared to ask Burrich。 〃I didn't even know him。〃
〃He was your father。〃
〃He got me on some woman。 When he found out about me； he left。 A father。 He never cared about me。〃 I felt defiant finally saying it out loud。 It made me furious； Burrich's deep wild mourning and now Chade's quiet sorrow。
〃You don't know that。 You only hear what the gossips say。 You aren't old enough to understand some things。 You've never seen a wild bird lure predators away from its young by pretending to be injured。〃
〃I don't believe that；〃 I said； but I suddenly felt less confident saying it。 〃He never did anything to make me think he cared about me。〃
Chade turned to look at me and his eyes were older； sunken and red。 〃If you had known he'd cared； so would others。 When you are a man； maybe you'll understand just how much that cost him。 To not know you in order to keep you safe。 To make his enemies ignore you。〃
〃Well； I'll 'not know' him to the end of my days； now；〃 I said sulkily。
Chade sighed。 〃And the end of your days will e a great deal later than they would have had he acknowledged you as an heir。〃 He paused； then asked cautiously； 〃What do you want to know about him； my boy？〃
